There are times when although we have done everything we could, we do not achieve the result that we wanted. There are just some things that are out of our control; things that we cannot do anything about.
What happens next?
Depression and heartache loom. It is as if the universe conspired to make everything work against you. You might end up thinking, "Why me?", because you are aware that other people who exerted the same, if not less effort, have succeeded in accomplishing your goal. You just have to admit that you are simply unlucky.
When you have finally accepted everything, your mind suddenly becomes free to think again - to prepare another plan. You might think of trying for the second time around, but is it worth it?
The truth is, you will never know unless you try. However, gaining courage to try again is harder the second time around, given that you have failed during the first.
Now I am thinking, I have failed to see Mt. Pulag's sunrise and sea of clouds - the very reason why I climbed Luzon's highest peak. I have failed to reach the summit of Mt. Apo, though I tried my best to survive the killer trail. The reason for both failures: uncooperative weather.
How could I know if I would succeed in my goals if I try again? How could I make sure that it would not rain? How could I know if a revenge climb is really worth a try?
Is there a hope for second chance? Or should I just let go?
I am still undecided and confused. I hope someone or something makes me finalize the decision, soon. I have unfinished business on those mountains but I need to be motivated and let go of my inhibitions.
I need motivation but unfortunately, I could not motivate myself. I know something that would definitely motivate me, but it is well out of my hands.
So help me, God.
A friend reminded me: To everything, there is a season, a time for every purpose under the sun. - Ecclesiastes 3:1